Summer Vacation & Things that occupy This Heart

I was supposed to be getting better at this.

Blogging often.

Writing my thoughts down about  my Journey.

Photographing more.

Being diligent.

I can be these things.

Its just that time has been passing by.

In it every moment is within it.

I cannot tell you how much Joy I have.

How filled I feel at the moment.
I only have this Joy, because I am so
aware of how broken I am.
I am aware of the deep desire I have for
Jesus to put me together.
Piece by Piece.

I cannot capture it in one moment.

In one smile.

In one creative moment.
In a burst of Laughter.
A shout or scream from the trampoline.

One moment of holding their hands.
The other guiding their hearts while they guide mine.

One might think I give them too much time.

But I only have, for a while, their entire hearts in mine.

To make them feel like they are the only things in this world;

while we make

sew

potter

paint

venture

write

play

read

Live

My family


On another note:
I have been reading, For the Children's Sake by Susan Schaeffer Macaulay.
It's really been a blessing to stumble upon this book and and just be stretched and moved to Live with my children. (Yes I said Live...it can get that bad)
Honestly it's not easy being a mommy. Sure as anything its not easy being a child.
I sometimes wish it was always as easy as peanut butter and jam sandwiches.
Yes the little song before this paragraph sounds like a dream,
BUT lets be honest, you cannot appreciate your dreams, if you have never had a nightmare.
The thing is, I have not found myself praying and leaning on God this much in my life, EVER!
If being a parent were easy, then I would be far from Him.
And for that I am greatful.

These captures are from the Irene Dairy Farm, Centurion.
If ever you go,
take a walk
giggle
let a calf lick you
eat a freshly baked scone with clotted cream (no pictures...my hands were all sticky from the jam)
hold hands with your man

Love & Light

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