Watching

For Jacques, Joshua & Elijah

I am watching my boys.
I am watching them.
Scared.
My heart beats a million beats.

I am watching my boys.
Their trust, intimidates me.
I want trust like that.
Their lack of fear.
Their freedom.

I am confined by the barriers I put up.

I am watching my boys.
They wave to me.
Not afraid.
I watch them run.
I watch them play.
No boundaries.
No walls.

I am watching my boys.

I take them in.

My fear eases.

My heart slows.
I trust.
I live.
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